What am I missing...

Boot camp today was HARD! The humidity was out of this world, it was hot, too, maybe I just wasn't feeling it, or the routine was just plain hard, OR all of the above. Not that I would have, but for the first time in 16 months I doubted I could do it. I didn't like that feeling at all! I finished the class, after talking myself through it, one exercise, one rep at a time. And now, here I am at home, showered, a healthy dinner in my tummy, a nice storm outside, some low rumbling thunder, every now and then flash of lightning. Just another Friday night, and here I am, home. Welcome to my life! I was feeling kind of blue earlier as I was warming up my dinner. Do I miss some things like going out, going to the movies, having a drink with someone, out, maybe just companionship of someone to talk to. Maybe. Intimacy, yes, and though intimacy comes in many different forms, not just the physical, although I miss that too, if truth be told. Am I missing something? Is life passing me by, and I'm not on the ride? I've actually been feeling something is missing, but I can't put my finger on it, or figure out what it is. I do know there is a lesson in this feeling. I am paying attention. In the silence and stillness, the answer will come. Talk soon...